Finally back to our normal routine this week and it's been rough getting used to getting up before the sun is up again. I was off work between Christmas and New Years and couldn't have enjoyed it anymore. We were lazy, we played games and ate too much, played outside in the snow, built snowmen and opened way too many presents. It was a great Christmas this year. It was different having another whole side of the family to go to and celebrate with but each time I get together with Tony's family, I love them more and more each time. They just fit perfectly into our lives and we seem to fit pretty well into theirs as well. It kind of feels like they've always been there, as cliche as that sounds.
I also realized over break that I have to bite the bullet and just join a freaking gym already. Can I afford it, not really, but should I? Yeah! I have gained the holiday 5lbs and it makes me sick and mad at myself.
I have not only fallen off the bandwagon but I can't even see the dust of the waggon leaving me behind. I am disappointed in myself. I went back to my old ways and they clearly don't work. I stopped looking at food as fuel for my body and as an emotional way for numerous reasons. That is not me or who I want to be. It just isn't. Plus I'm getting married in a 11 months and I don't want that day to come and for me to regret how I look. I want to look and feel amazing on that day and so I need to join a gym to get myself back on track.
Working out makes me think better about my food choices. It makes me happier. It makes me feel strong and good about myself. And I miss feeling physically tired from a good work out.
Hardest part is going to be getting up at 5am through the week so I can be at the gym between 5:15-5:30am and back home by 6:30. I am not a morning person....this is going to be a challenge but I am going to do it even if I have to set 10 alarms all around my house to get me up!
More on the gym later...but for now...here's a massive photo dump from pictures I took over Christmas Break.
|Attempt #1 at getting a cousins picture....Miss H has to control these boys somehow...|
|About as good as it gets peeps!|
|My crazy godchild....love that crazy kid|
|And then we got dumped on...and I realized how weak I really am in my arms by shoveling this junk!|
|it just kept coming!|
|Miss H got her first American Girl Doll|
|Lots of games played!|
|playing in the endless amounts of snow|
|Miss H "helping" me one day at work for a few hours|
Overall it was a great break and I'm sad to see it go.
Come back tomorrow for more on the gym experience!