Taking a few months off from running and letting my emotions getting the best of me brought back some of my old eating habits and guess what....I gained 13 lbs!
I can't even tell you how mad I am at myself. I'm mad and I'm disappointed for several reasons.
I let my running get away from me and now it's a struggle to run half mile. My shins hurt again, my feet kill me, and my lungs burn. I forgot how much it sucked in the beginning when I started out. I used to be able to make it all the way through Jillian Michael's level 1 of the 30 day shred without having to take a break...now I have to take a couple of 5 sec breaks to rest.
The weight gain bothers me...but to see how weak I am right now is probably more upsetting but it's also encouraging. I was once there and STRONG and I didn't realize how strong I was at the time but man I really was! But I'll get there again.
I'm back on it again and determined to do better this next year. I'm back to counting calories and working out daily. I am SO SORE today it kills to sit down into my chair. Which really isn't a sit it's more like I fall into my chair I'm so sore. ha! But it feels good! I feel like I'm back in control of doing something different with my body.
And even though I may have gained some weight....I'm still A LOT better than what I was a year ago at this time. I'm ahead of the game from a year ago and I just gotta keep going.
That's the difference now I believe....I'm not quitting. I'm not letting myself settle even though I did for a few months. Just last fall I was able to run 5 miles...I can and WILL do it again. Watch me!
No one ever said it was going to be easy...and that's ok. I'm not going to make this sound like it's super easy cause it's not...it takes a lot of determination and not wanting to quit.
I am so incredibly bloated in this picture I hate this but whatever! This dress/sweater will be the oufit I try on periodically to see how I'm doing.
Here's to another year!!!