Retraining myself

One of the things that I've learned so far in the past 3 1/2 months is how to retrain myself with food and how everything REALLY is ok........in moderation. 

I think that's one of the reasons I've been able to keep going so long on my new "diet" is because....well....because I'm not on a diet.  I literally eat anything I want but ..... in moderation. 

Do I ever eat bad....oh yes I do!  But I don't do it for an entire day (ok maybe there was that one day where nothing but chocolate sounded good) but for the most part if I know I'm going to be "bad" in one part of my day I will be good for the rest of the day. 

For example....yesterday the boyfriend was going to be making dinner, and he's awesome at it.  Just one of the amazing benefits of keeping him around....he cooks!  Side note....he also cleans up while he's cooking!!! 

Do you hear that???  Listen.   That's angels singing from the heavens....A-mazing! 

Anyways, Tony also tries to cook a healthy meal for us, and I so appreciate him trying to do this.  So last night he grilled chicken breasts on the grill...and then this is where it gets crazy sweet corn AND mashed potatoes (yes too starches...shame on us!  ha!) but the boy loves him some taters.  However, I rarely make mashed potatoes, Miss H doesn't like them and well I could eat a whole pan of them, not a good combo.  So once in a while it's ok to indulge. 

HOWEVER, here's where things get different....I took smaller portions of everything.  Instead of taking a huge spoon full of potatoes I just took a normal sized portion and half of a chicken breast and one thing of sweet corn.  And it stopped there.  And I was satisfied.  Not still hungry, not feeling like I'm starving...but satisfied.  I may have had just a few more small spoon fulls of the mashed potatoes because they were so good but I wasn't stuffed! 

I no longer leave lunch/dinner/breakfast feeling stuffed like I need to go lay down.  And that is honestly, how I always used to feel after I ate.  It is truly amazing me how much I need to eat to feel satisfied and not stuffed.  Last night after we finished and I started cleaning up the table, I kind of checked in with my body and realized how good I felt after eating a heavier than normal meal...and I felt good!  I was proud of myself for being good and not over doing it. 

So if you are reading this and trying to lose weight...watch your portions....you will not only feel better and more satisfied by eating the right portions but it'll also teach you how to feed yourself and you'll lose weight as well!  Also what I did yesterday since I knew what kind of dinner we were going to have and I knew I wouldn't be able to say no to anything, I made sure I was really good yesterday so I wouldn't feel guilty about my dinner. 

I can't tell you how good it feels to not feel stuffed all the time anymore!  Even to be able to enjoy a few "bad" things every now and then and it not kill my weight loss.  Makes it so much easier knowing I can do that every now and then! 

Weekend goals...run every day.  I've been a major slacker this week with my running and with Miss H gone at her dad's I need to make up for it.  Hopefully I can run with someone a few times but I also want to try to get a good long run in by myself. 

Also would like to scale to drop 3lbs this week!  Gotta be really good this weekend!!! 

Only 1 week and we leave for vacation....I can do it...I can do it...I CAN DO IT!!!

Happy Friday!!!! 

Just for comparison...this was taken on March 22, 2012.  Look how different my face looks!